Does anyone else feel this way?

So, I am such a mess of emotions. Anderson is now 4 months old and I should be over the ups and downs by now right? O.k. there are way more ups than downs. The ups: I LOVE my family!! I am with my kids for almost 24/7 (yes they do appear in my bed during the night... imagine 4 of us in a Queen size bed... good sleep, maybe that is the problem here!) But I love spending time with them. Yes, they argue. Yes, they get on each others nerves. Yes, they get on my nerves. But I can't seem to get enough of them!! I love getting out and about with my kids. I love making lunch for my kids (they get excited when I surprise them with a new type of chip or goodie... but they have to eat their grapes first!) I love cuddling that sweet baby!! He is so precious. He laughs and smiles and coos. WHAT A CUTIE!! I could go on and on. The downs: Housework. Laundry is never ending and the bathrooms need to be cleaned everyday when you have boys. I try to push it aside and just spend time with the kiddos, but then the house looks scary. We had a cob web in a corner that was big enough to capture a scorpion! I need to organize my days better. I am just not that A type personality. I want to have the benefits of perfection, but the reality of a free spirit. I think tomorrow I will try to start my new "schedule" and get some things done around here. I will tackle that pile of laundry in the living room, clean up the pile of books in Elliott's room, vacuum, and clean the shower. Anderson sleeps through the night and I really should have no excuse. On the other hand it is summer and I am still nursing every 3 hours... o.k. heck with the house for tomorrow I am going to the pool, picking blue berries and going for a walk with my favorite people right now, my kids!!